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Ano ang mas malaki kesa sa City? .... Utsu!

Walong buwan. Akalain mo yun? Who would have thought that we will make it this far considering tha we both have strong personalities, ayaw patalo sa isa't isa. Nonetheless, salamat sa iyo for keeping me sane. Nami-miss na kita, pero kailangan natin parehong gawin ang mga specific roles natin. I will see you soon.

Napakasagwa nitong kinakain kong ginataang langka for lunch. Parang kulang na lang ipaglandakan ng nagluto nito sa pagmumukha ko na ang bitter bitter nya at wala na syang inatupag sa buong buhay nya kundi maging bitter. Pero for crying out loud naman, wag sana idamay ang pagkain ko. God bless her soul!

Kasalukuyan akong nakatanga after eating my lunch and at the moment I closed my eyes, images of my parents and all family members, both dead and alive rushed into my mind na as if nasa tabi ko lang sila. It's a weird feeling that I don't get to feel regularly -- every voice seems so distinct and clear na para bang kinakausap nila ako. Mamamatay na ba ako? Hindi pa naman siguro. Siguro nga nami-miss ko lang sila. Ihad to open my eyes and stop thinking about them bago pa ako mag breakdown. Nakakahiya, nasa office pa man din ako. Kung alam lang nila ang nararamdaman ko.

Mas okay pala pag nagtatagalog ako. Express kung express na parang tanga lang. Walang rules of grammar na nilalabag, walang mapagmasid na mga mambabasang akala mo expert sa kung anong larangan ng katalinuhan na sila lang ang may alam. Bakit ba, blog ko to no!

Six minutes na lang, matatapos na tong break ko.... ano ba ang pwedeng gawin sa last six minutes? Magdasal...Check! Magpretend na okay lang ako...Check! Ayan four minutes to go. Akalain mo, nagawa kong magpakabanal at magkunwari at the same time, all in two minutes.

Sa nalalabi kong three minutes... magtetext muna ako kay K! Alam ko nalulungkot din sya. Dapat nga eh, magkasama kami today... dinner ulit sa Makati, mang-okray ng fashion sense ng mga trying hard na noveau riche at magkulitan buong araw. Wala eh.. ganun talaga.

Two minutes.... Nalulungkot pa rin ako. Lintek na langka yan. Lakas makahawa ng bitterness ampotah.

Time's up.... back to work muna ako. Dami ko pang paiiyakin later.. binayaran ko na yan ng luha ko, tigil tigilan nga nyo ako.

Background music : My Prerogative by Bobby Brown (di ba pwedeng Britney Spears man lang?)

Page 3 of 366 Book 2012

And so... I really do not understand why is it when someone is single, other possible mates do not bother. But when that person becomes attached and unavailable, people flock hoping to get a little sumthin-sumthin. Gaaah. pathetic. Maligo kaya sila ng colantro no? Or better yet, drink coffee para naman nerbiyusin nang konti sa mga sinasabi nila.

Casual sex seems to be unavoidable these days. The younger generation does not view sex with respect anymore - it's like going to the crapper for a dump or as simple as breathing. Women are more conservative, but not all of them and not all the time. It's like there's an invisible race to bed that needs their full attention. Can it not wait?

More so, most young people I know say "I love you" like it means nothing. I mean, you are talking about the very fabric of the human heart here, couldn't you feel a little remorse? I don't even know why I am writing this. Must be the rain, must be the freezing air conditioned room..... must be because I am missing someone....

I will end by a corny Arnold Clavio pick-up line "Ulap ka ba?" "Kasi parang nasa heaven ako pag kasama kita" Ayun oh! Benta!

Background Music : Forever Young by Alphaville

Page 2 of 366 Book 2012

I had a BBM fight with an old friend who can't seem to accept the fact that he is already in a relationship and should move on with his life. Common, a lot of people will kill for a decent relationship so why let a good one which has the potential to be great go to waste? Sometime, we truly don't know that what we need is standing in front of us. (or sitting in front of us? any other position will do)

K seems to be cranky today. I can feel it. And after a few SMS exchanges, I realized that my K has thoughts of me doing something fishy. I mean, how can someone who spends all the time at the office on weekdays and at the mall on weekends could even have the time to play with other people's toys. It is insulting and is uncalled for. K and I patched up anyway, like we always do. As for me, no more late night outs if I were to get through this unscathed.

Maybe it is because of boredom that even Jollibee's Drive Thru did not escape my sarcasm. For crying out loud, why do they even call it a DRIVE THRU, when you actually drive around the establishment. In short, can we call it a DRIVE AROUND instead? You seriously want me to believe that you will drive through the joint. Puhleease.

It may be 2012 and while I have made several resolutions to be nice and friendly, I still keep one finger in place over my asshole switch. Being an asshole is better than being homicidal or suicidal.... It's cleaner, no blood involved. After all..., patience is not a virtue. Patience are people in hospitals. (So I've been told).

Background music: Do It Again by Steely Dan

Page 1 of 366 Book 2012

Today marks the first day of 2012. Sounds like a headline from The Manila Bulletin (yes they do make such headlines like "Today is Christmas Day", something Ron and I always laugh at). Custom dictates that one must get a haircut so I decided to step out amidst the smog, heaven forbid, whatever creatures could be lurking in the smog (of course I am exaggerating).  Maybe fog is too expensive that Manila Mayor Lim decided to settle with smog. Whatever.

I should probably do more with my free time other than being at the mall all the time. Still, I found myself checking out underwear with my cousin Hecko who seems to be so drawn with these Captain America inspired boxers. I kinda like the design too, sans the star positioned on that crotch. It's like your undies shouting 'Bullseye!" and for the more challenged "Hit Me With Your Best Shot".

I'm outta here.

Background Music : Never Too Much by Luther Van Dross